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Monday Morning Motivation..."Praying through Our Tears from GuidePosts Magazine

Another rough week.  I have learned that my situation can throw you into depression and that is what has seemed to have happened to me.  I have had sorrow, I have sadness, I have had disappointment, but depression is an entirely different creature.  Gives me a respect for those living with this awful illness.  I never realized an acute event could produce it. (I did go to the Dr).
Anyway....I was reading GuidePosts Magazine online and came across a quote from Julia Attaway that seemed to fit me...

"I’ve had a week straight out of Romans 8:26: “We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.” There are times the heart hurts so much it is mute. 
Even so, I can still offer God what I have: my tears.
I can ask him to use my tears to water the seed of my faith, so that I grow closer to Christ instead of drawing away.I can ask him to use my tears for good: to wash away someone else’s suffering.I can ask him to unite my tears to t…

Monday Morning Motivation

This all remains very difficult for me.  In  my waking nightmare I try to sleep.  When I do fall asleep it is not for long and I wake up stressed and then realize that I am still in my nightmare.  This repeats day after day after day.  The physical and emotional symptoms remain.  It is awful, it is my living nightmare.
I pray a lot.  The two prayers I lean on are The Lords Prayer and Psalm 23.
The Lord is my shepherd (Lord help me to know you are leading me) I shall not want (but I do want lord, I want peace and reassurance) He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters He restores my soul (my soul is in desperate need of restoration, it is shattered) I will focus and pray these prayers hundreds of times this week as I have since my nightmare began. One friend told me to find simple things to be thankful for even in the midst of the pain and the fog I am in.  Here is what I am thankful for today. Many friends that have taken the time to not only pray for me but to se…

Monday Morning Motivation

Don't have much to say for Monday Morning Motivation.  I just thought I would sing a song, Blessings by Laura Story, that has been helping me get through.  The words give me some hope.   My scripture for the week...

May your unfailing love be with us Lord, even as we put our hope in you Psalm 33:22

Recipe Review Broccoli Cheese Pie from All Recipes Magazine

It has been awhile since I have tried a new recipe.  I have a new magazine that I really like, All Recipes, and I thought why not give one of their recipes as try.  I decided to make Broccoli Cheese Pie...

 I studied the recipe

INGREDIENTS: 1 head fresh broccoli, chopped 1 cup shredded Cheddar cheese 3/4 cup all-purpose flour 1/2 teaspoon salt 1/4 teaspoon dry mustard 1/4 cup butter, melted

1 tablespoon butter 1 onion, chopped (I used about 1/4 onion) 1/4 pound fresh mushrooms, sliced 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour 1 cup half-and-half cream 1 teaspoon salt 1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg (I used about 1/8th teaspoon) 3 eggs, beaten I gathered my ingredients...
As you can see I also added two chicken sausage links to my recipe... DIRECTIONS: 1.Preheat oven to 400 degrees F (200 degrees C).2.Bring about 1 inch water to a boil in a pot. Place the chopped broccoli in a steamer basket over boiling water, and steam 5 minutes, or until tender but firm.3.In a bowl, mix the Cheddar cheese, 3/4 cup flour, 1/2 teaspoon…

Words of wisdom and encouragement...."As long as you can, do it"

It has been a tough 5 weeks.  I have not been myself since my husband decided to leave me.  Awful!
I was reading Guideposts Magazine this week.  They have a section called "The Up Side, Quotes from Today's Positive Thinkers".  I liked the quote form Robert Redford...
"The way I deal with arthritis is to keep moving.  As long as you can play hard tennis,  as long as you can ski or ride a horse---all kinds of things can come your way.   As long as you can, do it" Robert Redford His challenge seems to be his arthritis.  Mine is the different. Mine is a looming unwanted and unnecessary divorce.  Both painful in their own way.  Well I took Robert's advice and decided to "do it".  I went and heard friends sing at an Irish Pub last night after work.  Today I got up and went to a local Zumba class.  I came home and made banana bread and watched a movie.  This weekend I am going to church and to a local comedy event.  Sometimes it is hard to go through the motio…

Monday Morning Motivation- Timely Sermons

In my pain I have to keep busy.  So Caleb and I went to 2 church services this week seeking any kind of strength and or wisdom I may find in God through the messages.
At AUMC Saturday night the pastor spoke on faith and in that faith finding assurance. She spoke of trust and that in uncertainty all we have is our trust in God through faith.  That when we feel rising anxiety (I feel it 24 hours a day) and when we feel desperation (which I do) that we need to remember that we are God's. That he never lets us go, even when we can't feel him.
At CrossPointe today the sermon was specifically on what I am going through.  I learned that this, I will call it an unnecessary pain, impacts everyone.  The Pastor described it as gut wrenching, and excruciating in its pain.  I agree with these descriptions and I will add one of my own soul shattering. I was reminded that it leaves scars on every aspect of  life and will have ripple affects that will affect everyone.  For the pain this cause…