I love that, "it is well with my soul". Yes it is well with my soul. I have an amazing family. A loving husband, two wonderful daughters, a great son in law and an amazing new grandson. I can't forget the blessing of Bruce, my sweet brother:-) I know beyond doubt that God loves me. But I am still troubled. I deeply miss being in a church family. After serving so many years in the ministry it is difficult to not be in church. I miss singing and playing keyboards on the praise team, (I used to drive my family crazy practicing at all hours:-). I miss the drama teams. I miss the fellowship I had with so many while Joe was in the ministry. I miss serving in ministry. I miss church services, cooperate prayer, communion. I miss trying new recipes and taking samples to church to share with others. I miss going out for coffee, wine, dinner and movies with my church friends. I miss knowing I had friends I could call at any hour if need be and they could call me. I miss the support, the fellowship, the fun of having friends. I miss the care, the laughter and the tears of true support. I miss hugs. This is all gone now. Makes me sad and troubles me all at the same time. I could live without it but I don't want to.
No, I don't accept this, but I am at a point I don't know what to do about it. Yes there have been major changes in my life the last several years and that has thrown me off balance. I have made good and bad decisions in the process of reestablishing my world. Right now my brain is muddled, (probably nothing new:-) So I will do what I always do. Give it to God. I will hold onto the reminder that has gotten me through the good the bad and the ugly of the last few years....
|I hope that it is well with your soul today. |
If not, I pray that you can just remember to
be still and know that He is God,
He is in control and loves you!
Enjoy Your World:-)